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Name's Tasha
If you haven't figured it out, I am a girl
I am a 'writer'
'Student'
'Hopeless Romantic'
Where's my chocolate???!!!

I had add maths test today.Pure evil.We only got 1 hour and 15 min to answer 8 questions which ranged to a,b,c's.I didn't finish like 5 questions,grr!I just got a good can of dose of reality.Aunt Z told me about my lazy ars behaviour,my dad told me that saying"my bad" is a bad habit.How is saying"my bad" so wrong?It's not like I'm saying the f-word or anything ya know?To top it off,my mom just gave me a lecture on spm,blah!Spm!I'm still getting used to the present and your making me think of SPM?You try dealing with my life,gah!You try tackling the tests when everyone else is so brainy!GAH!!!!!...I know I should be grateful that so many people actually care but today is SO not the day to get on my case!Dang it!Now I really wanna quite school and run away,which is totally stupid cause I won't survive the freaking world.In other words,I am now angry as a mad bull,arrgghhh!

~Tasha~

P.s.I do not have pms!Im just totally p*ssed!

Exam 1st day!Jeng jeng jeng!Still alive laydies and gents.1st on the list was bm,urghh!10 minutes and then it was Sejarah,Oh ze mental torture.Thank god for recess;P.Englsih wasn't so bad,ahaha.On most of my papers I put in little quotes and sayings that I would love to put on shirts,one sample is the above title,lol.Here are some others,"Goddess of freaks coming through!","Stop staring!...I know I'm gorgeous;),","I'm not fat,just curvaecous","My scraxaflitz beats whatever"...That's mostly it.Lol.After school while waiting for mah car,deebs and pei ru came to buy ice-cream,ok,so pei ru wanted to buy ice-cream,ahaha.Deebs was talking to me and then she said "Would anyone eat this leaf?,"...or something like that.I was feeling crazy baby!So I went,"I would for money...,".Then she replied,"How much?,".I thought about it and just said,"5 bucks,".She said it was a deal and before I knew it I had put that leafy green icky thing in my mouth.Of course I had to swallow and chew!Blech!The taste was awful!I felt like barfing and my eyes were literally dropping tears,Erlack!I managed it somehow and swallowed it as well!Victory!Ok,so it was only 5 bucks but hey,if fear factor has a leaf eating challenge then I'm your girl,ahaha!Went I went for tution just now,Kak Di was there.She went,"Eh,Tasha,have you slimmed down?,".I was shocked,"Me?!Slim?Since when?,".I guess all those baggy pants must've been hiding my curves and figure,haha...yeah right!And before I went back she said,"Eh,Tasha Slim down a bit lah then nampak lagi cun,".I just smiled but in my head I was like,"Yeah...and the day that any guy says I look cun will be the day I go for the senior prom,".I was just thinking about yesterday when this guy was in guess and he paid like 100 bucks to buy his gf a top at least I think it was for his gf.That girl is lucky.I don't know any guy that would spend that much on a girl...well,not yet that is,lol.This is where it ends for now.Astalahugz!

*sings*Test is tommorrow,test is tommorrow,test is tommorrow and I will die!Everyone!...*uhum*Pardon the song.But hey,doesn't it just tell all?Today went to Planet Hollywood for lunch,1st time for the jakun-ish me,hehe.Accesorry shop there got lotsa pretty things.I got a free handphone accesorry...of course,my mom had to spend like 200 bucks but yeah...it was free for me.Bought a guess bag for my aunt(her b'day was in feb if Im correct,mom didn't get her anything,tsk,tsk).Guess was on sale but since I'm so humongous like a freaking whale,I couldn't find anything that fits me well,sigh.Right now I'm just feeling a bit down.My pet bro,T,who I havent contacted or spoken to in like...ages,has actually been at Smksh for awhile now.I didn't even know until S pointed it out to me!So just for fun I said hi to him online and he went offline...with exams being tommorrow he prob had to study or maybe he got disconnected.I don't know.It hurts though when someone you thought you knew would go and just ignore you for so long like your a worthless piece of trash.I think that's the problem with me...no real guy except derrick gets me.Boohoo!Missing him!Damn it,I need a life!

~Tasha~

My nick on msn messenger right now,hehe.Which is so true.Yesterday,the concert was the bomb!We got vip passes that got us backstage to mingle with the 'in' crowd,arrghhh!I felt so freaking jakun like hell.Plus it was cold as hell back there,brr.Everyone looked glam and all...I felt outta place with my jeans,sleevless hard rock cafe jakarta top and my cheapo poncho.Oh well.Me and Kak Oya(cousin) plus my annoying lil sis made our way to the bar where we could get a drink and chill.Paula Abdul was like 2 feet away from me!She looked gorgisimo as always.How the heck do these people do it?After a bit more of our jakun-ish behaviour,me and the others went to get our seats.You know what was the best part?We were at the arena!Like only a few seats away from the stage,arrghh!During the middle of the concert,this guy asked if he could seat in alysha's seat...seeing as alysha was in front with the parents and all the rest(who got the tix last min at got better seats,dang!),I let him.It wasn't so bad at 1st guy sitting quitely and all.Then he wanted me to do him a favour,which was to miss call his friend,could you believe it?I actually did it.Thank god,I couldn't get through for some reason.Then he started talking through me during the breaks?Hello,talk about weird!The concert was excellent!I enjoyed myself like hell and danced mostly if I wasn't swooning,ehehe.Since the concert was still on at like 2 o clock in the am,we got up and left during the bep performance,dang,I couldn't enjoy as much as I would since parents were there.I saw bsb backstage when we were leaving.Thought I could get a pic with them today,how wrong I was,grr!Today was the high tea with all the artists from yesterday.I was dressed in my baju kurung ala tom abang saufi(I hope no one noticed the humango stain on it!);P.We left the house at like 2.30 but we only made it to Istana Melawati at 4 something cause we were sesat for like...eternity?Haha.The only thing going through my mind was"Bsb,bep,jackie chan,clay aiken....ACK!".Too bad bsb wasn't even there.Included in the list of people not there is lauryn hill,wycleaf jean,the other members of bep besides will.i.am and boyz2men.Dang it!But all was not lost...I was of course,malu as hell at 1st but I managed to not trip to go over to Paula Abdul...My god,she is really sooooo sweet!Next was joey who was too nice as well.Other people on my list of pics and autographs are clay aiken,david blaine,innuendo,dayang nurfaizah...wait...yeah,only that but hey,not like you can see clay aiken in malaysia everyday right?The international artists even had a try at dancing poco-poco,I jumped at the chance to dance with them,duh!But them doing the poco-poco was pretty funny,hahaha!All the people were nice and all but david blaine looked a bit dazed though...too much magic maybe?Whatever the reason today was totally absofreakinglutely awesomeness!Till next one all,Muaxz!

P.s.Pei ru,I like your clay giving me cpr comment,wouldn't mind it,haha;P

I'm back...and just about tired as ever.Haven't studied at all,hehe.Just got back from Indonesia a couple of hours ago and now Im just tired,hehe.I'm now typing in the semi dark which can't be good for your eyes,ow!Ok,here's what happened.On the day that we were suppose to leave at 1 something on our flight we had to leave later...why?Becasue Alysha's passport was about to expire and no one bothered to check,hohum.So we had to get on the 4 something flight but not as usual it was just me and Alysha.Mom and dad couldn't stop sms-ing and calling even before we got on the plane,sigh.This time like on the perth trip with Aunt Z. that I took,I was a young passenger travelling alone,woopdeedoo.Got there at 7-ish...Alysha wanted to head straights for Plaza Senayan to shop but I just wanted to snooze.We wounded up going to Plaza Senayan anyway but to eat at the foodcourt.My god,the fast food there is expensive!Plus over there they eat everything with rice,dang it!Next day,we were supposed to leave for Plaza Senayan again early in the morn but cause jalan macet(jam),we only made it to the mall at 12 noon.1st we went to the outlet though.There were so many cute things to buy for Azalea!This is all I can handle for now,till next time,nitez;).

Oh man!Today was full of events,gah!As most of you know,the mat tasi family gathering was today.I recongnised one of the guys from school,hope he isn't really that guy.Hoping!It was not so bad at 1st.Alysha did her poem and all.My god,I wanted to sink into the stage and hope I stay there for the rest of my life cause after that me and the cuzins sang ve's party like this.More like mimicked,gah!Totally embarassing cause we didn't rehearse or anything and just winged it.Arghh!I got some soup cups fromthe lucky draw,hardeharhar.On a more brighter note...I will get to meet the artists from the Tsunami Charity Concert.*Screams*Black Eyed Peas,BSB,Boyz 2 Men,AAAAAHHHHHHH!The permaisuri is gonna invite the artists to a high tea at Istana Melawati and seeing that the Permaisuri is close with my grandma,uhum,what else?Wither her help hopefully I'll be able to go to the concert as a vip as well,muahaha!Happy days!Plus I'll be going to Jakarta tommorrow.Ok,so I won't be able to go to aunt Z's party and Balqies's dutch outing but shopping,ppl!!!MUahahahaha!I'm so phsycotic now,have a muahaha nite!

Dear Self,
A lot of things have been going through my mind.Well,stuff just always does.Recently I've been thinking a lot about who I am.What makes me Tasha?It is an endless road when you try and search for who you are yet you come up with nothing but this empty feeling in the deepest part of you.I am a kind soul.This I know because I would sacrfice everything for my loved ones.If anyone dear to me needed a kidney or some organ,I would gladly volunteer.I do tend to get superficial and materialistic at times,then again...who doesn't?I love making people happy and making someone laugh is something I just really enjoy.People do tend to mistake me for a pushover most of the times.I am v.righteous.I stand up for what I believe in!There is no weighing down my passion for fighting for what is right.I look in the mirror everyday...there is this image of a girl staring back at me.She's not the prettiest girl ever.She has a curvy body and is yes,overweight.This is reality.Yet she is thankful for what she has and knows that god made her this way for a reason.I'm not the smartest girl in my class,I'm not the most gorgeous or fit either.I am pretty emotional at times at cry at the silliest of movies.I don't have many exceptional talents and I am quite naive and weird at times.I have a tendency to criticise people at certain times cause Im a bit of a perfectionist.I dislike some people but because I know it would crush them to pieces I talk about them behind their back.I wish I could tell it to their face but I'm too much of a woos.I don't have that many guy friends.I'm an introextrovert.Somedays I wanna jump,shout and hang with my pals.Other days I wanna sit in my room look up at the ceiling and come up with stupid stories that would never come true but give me hope at least.I can act,so thats a plus.I don't sing like Christina A. but it doesn't stop me from singing.I have a passion for just about anything I put myself into.If I try something new and I really am bad at it,of course,I'll be upset but it's always a learning experience.I would love to do extreme sports if my mom ever let me put myself in that position.To sum it up,I am just a normal human being but consider myself a freak.For now...this is what I am.

Love,
~Me~

Yes,I got in the drama team.Oh yeah!Who rocks?I do!Ahaha!Ok,so today was another boring day at school besides the whole drama thing.There was a bit of excitment cause Nam has a crush,ooooh!How nice for her,hehe.I am still on the prowl though.Today would be the last day of school if it werent for the sports day tommorrow,dang it!Deebs and Pei ru won't be there tommorrow but hana,nab and nam will...still undecided wether Im going or not.Oh the headache!Azalea is doing ok.Now everyday I dukung her for at least 2 minutes cause she is growing to love me plus she's soooooo cute!Ahaha!Man,I must be hyper today...still Im craving for some secret recipe cake,yum.My mom hasn't called Aunt Z about the Tsunami charity concert yet,grrr!*shouts*Call now,mom!I'm worried tix will be sold out since all of the ppl headlining the concert are freaking famous ppl.I'm gonna say ciao here since I gotta go soon.Ciao!

Ok,people here's the latest scoop on what's up..with me,hehe.Yesterday was the drama audition,durh.We had to memorise a passage right there on the spot and present it in front of the teacher.You know what play it is?My big fat indian wedding.I don't even look indian,gah!You know what worries me sem auditioned too.Im sure she'll get like some big part,sigh.I hope they consider me as well cause I have experience,hehe.Today me and deebs missed school,ok,plus some other usahawan people cause of the EYE launching program,haha.Well,it was mad fun.Me,deebs and sem were laughing like mad the whole day.It was really nice getting to know all the people in usahawan.Can you believe it only 3 guys in the whole group?Food was ok at equatorial hotel,ceh,no japanese good grr!Oh well.Other issues include the Tsunami Concert dad says I can go,yay!Mom is worried I guess.I know she's worried but it's not as if this is my 1st concert?Hello!That about sums it up for today.IEIN(I end it...Now!).

I am just feeeling a tiny weeny but hyper.Lalala.Talked to Pn.Yong again today...airod is a-go project,huahah!Must talk to atuk about the most suitable date to go and visit the factory.Also talked to Alia K today.Hmmm...must find Bm jokes and any people intrested in submitting articles.I don't really blame em.Yeah,since it is bm after all.Hols in nearing,yeah!Woohoo!I am gonna have myself a movie-thon and stay up late and...*gulp*study.Bloody exams!And tommorrows the drama audition,crap.I am nervous as hell.Today wasn't as exciting,so I'm gonna leave ye here.Sayonara and all that jazz,ladies and gents.

I cut my freaking left thumb a bit on the trolley.Dang,those things are sharp.I am very the sleepy right now but so wanna write in my new story,khuakhuakhua.Drama auditions are actually on wednesday...at least I hope it is;P.Got the letter permission slip for the EYE launching ceremony.Oh yeah,get to miss school,woohoo!Damn it,must remember to ask mom/dad to sign it.I had to wait with a Azalea a bit just now when got back from shopping.She was moving around like a lil turtle...still,so cute!Boboy had an accident in his pants during our lil shopping trip.It wasn't a lil one and it wasn't a pretty...scent*faints*.He had to cope with 9.90 pants from giant which he actually likes cause of the army motive and badges on the sides.I am good,haha!Maybe I could dress people up for a living..maybe celebs,ooooh!Dad just created a blog yesterday.He didn't really know what was going on but then I set it straight for him,ceh!School hols are coming up soon.Still no definite plan but hoping to go to Tambun with Aunt Z...yeah!Holidae!About the field trip,haven't written any letter since Adila said she'd give it to me tommorrow...she better,grr!The guys still wanna go somewhere to do with chocolate*rolls eyes*Oh well...I don'y know whats up with derrick..My sms never got to him.Wonder whats wrong with him?Is it possible for guys to get Pms?I don't think so!Gonna stop here.Aurevoir all.

I'm suppose to be studying right now.Emphasis on the suppose.Lol.Of course,I have no mood to study.Who in the hell actually has the mood to study?Ok,some people but Im not one of em.Today was Azalea's Cukur Jambul.You can read about it in Azaleas blog.I know Im suppos to be doing some hw now but of course since sports day is coming up not gonna bother.I'm still gonna go for the drama audition.I so wanna go in.It would look v.nice on my testimonial.I'm rethinking this whole moving schools thing.Don't think Im gonna do it unless Im totally desperate as hell.My arms and most other body parts hurt.Contirbuted by many things,ehehe.Besides the cukur jambul,it looks as though lotsa ppl wanna go to airod for the est field trip.Cadbury can bite my bootie!Not literally though;P.Will have to talk to Pn.Yong about it.Now if I move schools who else would do this kind of work?No one else,hah!Lol.That's about it for now.Will right more when anything develops...hopefully,hehe.Till then.Tata and Muaxzs!

Today has been just one of those days filled with emotion for me.I was feeling lazy as hell to go to archery,I mean..c'mon?Who doesn't want extra snooze time?Lol.Managed to drag myself there anyway.As usual,as I have discovered,I am BAD at archery...well,for now.In the future Ladies and Gents we may never know*sigh*.Turns out my cousin needed a lift home,no prob,Miz,haha.Saw Balqis S. who was training her perbarisan people.Asked her about drama tryouts,true enough.It's happening this Tuesday after school at the Bilik Mesyuarat.Look,out people here I come*wink*.I was pissed as hell during lunch cause I wanted to eat but mom made me drag me arse to tution,arrrrghhhh!It's times like those that make me wanna just stop going to school and become an artist or whatever eventhough Im also bad at art,you get what I mean?I was mad at that fact cause I had to go to Teen Theatre after that.We did vocals and apperances today.Good for me since it will help a WHOLE lot for my audition on Tuesday.Throughout this whole episode as well,my legs hurt like hell from doing jazz last night which was kinda torture.I felt like I messed up a lot.I seem to feel this a lot now.*roll eyes*Duh,it's me!Actually me and the fam just watched the movie "Ray" starring Jamie Foxx.I can see why he won awards for it.Man,he can really act.The movie was like "WO-OW".During all those emotional parts,I cried like a sap;P,of course.Seriously though the movie is BRILLIANT even if it is a bit long.Tommorow is Azalea's "Cukur Jambul"...Not like she has a jambul to cukur,hah!I'll have to run along like the good girl Im s'pose to play...*pfft*.Oh,well,if I wanna live,I gotta play by the parents rules.Oh yeah,dad is considering letting me and Alysha go with Atuk for his trip to Jakarta during the school hols.*pumps fist in air*YEAS!!!I just hope we actually get to go...:S.Till future update,this is Tasha.Muaxzs!

Here is the latest update people...Tasha aka yours truly is thinking of moving to another school.Why you ask?Well,My Physics teacher has just given birth,my bio teacher is down with the gout and has like most diseases known to man,my maths teacher is busy with his daugther.Can you imagine what could happen during Spm year?I am jsut a tiny lil bit stressed out now I guess.I tried to save an article in a diskette...didn't work out.So now I leave it in the hands of my dear darling Pei ru(Thx so much darling!).I will lower it a bit on the guy thing cause I have a feeling youguys don't just wanna read bout that.It sux basically I know.I now have to print out my brochure for english so till next post.Muaxz!

Yesterday I had like too much hw to do.Today I have no hw to do but then I have to articles for the school mag!GAHHH!ITalk about ironic*roll eyes*.Plus the fact that I am like super duper sleepy as hell and will prob be Tasha Le Zombie by tommorrow morning.Dad isn't home for like 5 days,Argghh!Just me,Alysha and boboy in one room...*Mouth drops*NOOOOO!!!!Pei ru rejected Skl.I know this is pretyy pathetic but I do think I've gone pretty low on the male-o-meter.Still no best guy friends....Miss derrick*sniff*.You know what else?It's confirmed that Hana is moving as well!WTF?I may as well move wile they're at it.I wonder if Pmr results count in U.k?*yawn*.Dang,Im feeling sleepy.I'm gonna go and work on the freakin artcile now.Tata all.Muaxz!

Why do I have to lose a good friends every year?Ok,so it started last year with Kys then Nab*sob**sob*.It's like this...I was in the same class as Kys last year.She sat next to me and I started gettting to know her really well and just when I found out we had like a whole lotta stuff in common,she moves to CBN.Same thing happened this year cept Nab sat in front of me.Why?Why?Why?You know what else bites?I still don't have a best guy friend...to be exact none at all.Well,that know me,ya know?Hw is still piling up,arrghhh!I just wanna be home schooled is that possible?!Then no one would give a freakin damn wether I have a social life or not!Gonna stop here for now.Just feeling pissed to the max.GAH!!!!!!!Pissed out Tasha signing off.

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