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Name's Tasha
If you haven't figured it out, I am a girl
I am a 'writer'
'Student'
'Hopeless Romantic'
Where's my chocolate???!!!

I was in a lazy mood when I wkoe up this morning. Now I'm just pissed, angry, annoyed and just...ARRRRGHHHHHHHH!!!So I'm venting in the only way I know how...through words. I sms-ed both mom and dad to ask about whether i could go and watch the fireworks. Dad sent me an sms this morning asking about how they expected me to respsonible because I'm the eldest and asked why I keep asking to go out when they're not here(They're in Jakarta collecting stupid home things!) and about how I should act more responsible since Im going abroad!!!!Like Hell I'm not responsible!!!If I wasn't the least bit responsible, you think I would ask you permission to go out??!!Any normal teenager would gladly freak out and just sneak out! Yes, my behaviour isn't normal!Yes, I did ask em to go out when they weren't here but the thing with Myra was cos she was gonna go back and yesterday was suppose to be a special celebration and what not, so couldn't they cut me some slack and let me go out with ppl my own age ONCE IN A FREAKING BLUE MOON?I deserve to go out with my friends once in awhile.Is that too bloody much to ask? I feel so pissed but I can sense tears forming. Where's the poetic justice in that?! You wanna know what I think of responsibilities? Fuck em. Yes, I am that pissed.

is suppose to mean something to us Malaysians right? I don't have that right though. What do I know about our Independence? Not much. But I am grateful for Malaysia...despite the traffic, way of thinking and many others...It's home. Thursday morning was a blast. All the Taylorians came out in full force to celebrate Merdeka. I have never seen a crowd with so much semangat Merdeka. It was fun to celebrate in a different way. Me in my nyonya kebaya included. In a way, I marked my independence today, urm, yesterday, by not doing much for data. Another way was when I went out to get ice cream with Nis and Zy. Wanted to go to curve to catch the fireworks...For some reason, I really, really, really, wanted to see it this year. Mom of course said no cos I had to look after the kids. So much for Independence, eh? I mean the latest I can come back is like 10.30 the most. Still early right? So I celebrate the festivities by sitting in front of the computer, playing Wii and listening to the popping of fireworks. Yes, popping. Love Hellogoodbye right now. Love you guys always, Mwaxz! Happy Nerd-eka, I mean, Merdeka.

That's how I feel right now. It was raining like 2 hours ago. Now its stopped. The cold air was just so refreshing that I closed my eyes and took the atmosphere in. Pleasant start to the day. I had ikea ice cream yesterday. Pretty nice and big for one buck. Anybody wanna join me for the next one? I'm missing someone right now. Wanna take a guess who it is? Im full of questions today, aren't I? The biggest question being...What will today hold?

It really did...because of a book. You know what I love about books? They can take you anywhere your heart desires. You use your imagination to its full limit. Movies are nice to watch. Sure. But books have their own sense of magic about them. The book I read? Burning bright by Tracy Chevalier. It's about the french revolution. The slums of London. The innocence of childhood romance. I love the whole feel of the book. William Blake's fight for the revolution...Good golly miss molly, its reminding me of my own little fantasy...if you want more details, ask me and I'll tell you. Anyways, monday...herm! I'm killing myself slowly with all the amount of junk food im injecting...so bad...but so good. Like chocolate, no? Sarah couldn't leave the lesbian bit at bay. One lil quip about considering going lesbian(since none of the guys seems to show any interest) and I'm officially debutanized as one. No idea if that's an actual word but what the heck,right?

One last look..

She sat quietly by herself,
With music in her ears,
Oblivious to wealth,
Surrounded by something of fear,
Out the window,
The clouds hung dim,
As she tied her bow,
She spotted him,
He was so focused,
With a pencil in his hand,
So busy sketching,
Movements intricate like sand,
They smiled,
Eyes caught by one another,
They blushed,
Turned away to face the weather,
Then she stood with one last look,
Paced slowly to the door,
He dropped what he was doing,
For she was there no more.

Heys peeps, so today is aloha day. I'm sitting here in my hawaian-esque board shorts and man, sejuk! No wonder I always prefer jeans somehow, lol. Yesterday was hip hop day, which was fun. Mr.K looked downright comel. Mr.M won the best outfit handsdown. Cargo pants with 1 leg folded, check. Cap, check. Florida shirt, check. Sunglasses, check. Ikea Clock...che...whuat? Yup, Mr.M was going around with a blue ikea clock around his neck. That's how enthusisatic he was yesterday. He even did a very kononnya cool move, lol. Whipping out his sunglasses just before he went out of the class. I was blinging as well. Hope today is a good day though, better get started on my journal, tata! I mean, aloha.

yes, ladies and gents. It's dress up week for us in ICPU. Yesterday, we kicked things off with Sporty monday. Yours truly couldn't be bothered and put on a shirt and blinging stretch pants. You know the ones. Man, Im being so reporter-ish. Anyways, 1st on the list, my apologies to Tapir for not returning your calls. My phone is on the fritz and yeah, I missed this week cos I was just too tired and not feeling well. As a testimony to that, you can tell by my raspy voice cos of my throat. Seriously hope its nothing though. It would be such an awkward moment to fall sick. Soooo many things to pass up! Today is formal day and Im wearing a black and white dress with a cardigan which ppl keep mistaking for Sarah's one. Grrr. Gtg, well, more of better go before I infect you people. Mwaxz!

I don't feel like myself right now. This sucks. I feel like an emo overbearing biatch who's bringing people down. Went to Sem's party. It was alright. I just didn't feel like me. Still got a lotta work to do...still havent done anything. I miss my pals. I miss the good old days....wth is wrong with me?

I am feeling a bit wacky,
But still feel like talking crap,
Now got ready my ladies,
Cos this is gonna be a rap,
I woke up this morning,
And I went walked up to class,
But before I had gotten in the car,
I tripped on the grass,
2nd period finished early,
So I brought the songs,
But somehow my battery,
Just refused to go along,
All day I felt tired,
I was always sitting in the caf,
Felt like I was wired,
To frown and not to laugh,
On the way back to the car,
I went through it again,
My sandal slipped on the tar,
I somehow lost my brain.

Is what I should be doing but now I'm going at multiple steps that I could possibly trip over myself. I went for the clinique workshop thing yesterday. I got lipgloss, so that was alright. Was expecting more stuff though, ahaha. I mean, am I really gonna use RM100 makeover voucher anytime soon? Probrably not. Maybe I should go do it on my b'day, hurm...or save it for a special date? Decisons, decisions. On another level, I'm pretty perplexed by today's situation. I mean everyday in general. I read the newspaper and think...Are we really doing this to each other? Grandpa's raping their grandaughters, fathers killing their daughters by chopping them up and burning em, bus crashes that just keep reoccuring...is the world on the brink of a doomsday? Somedays it seems like it. Ok, that was deep. Btw, Jay Leno is pretty funny. Read his article about the Beckhams in NST. very entertaining. Im confused!!!

I am tired. And it is only a monday. I've got loads of assignments due next monday and I SHOULD start soon. Whether I actually do it is another thing. Classes weren't at all bad today. Had a few laughs. Mostly at me and Sarah talking in our OH So Bimbotic accents. Ex, Like Seriously? Omg, I so can't believe that! Yeah, try to imagine that for like 30 minutes unscripted, haha. I've found a new word...created one anyway...Mentornado2kan! Sarah was totally mentornado2kan something that didn't need to be. I've seen shakespeare's work done in so many forms but I saw something in popular the other day that was so out there. MANGA SHAKESPEARE! Romeo aka Rock god. Juliet aka Shibuya girl and both feuding families are kazuyas! HAHAHAHAHA! It was damn comel though and Paris looked so hot in the Manga version;P. OH yes, HAPPY BIRTHDAY to my dearest PAPA!!! You're not old as you think you are and you have the wickedest taste in music. Thanks for everything Pa:D.

Fridays are indeed very interesting. Today I decided to be all weird and wear my hot pink kurung moden, heehee. Needless to say, I got v.weird looks and mostly remarks that when in the direction of "WOAH!". Haha, even Mr.M made fun of me. On the way back from college, Me, Zy and Mirah were going all gaga and taking vids. It was damn hilarious...and so much fun. Being the regular drama queen, lol. It feels good to be singing aloud and making a fool of myself. It reminds of the form 2 days in the foyer. Singing aloud even when there's no music and we're not really on pitch or anything. It seems like everyone is going through a rough patch at the mo. My loverlies, hang in there. Even when life throws you all these stupid tricks, just relax and if you need me you know how to reach me;).

Break

Just take a break,
Step back,
Look at all that you have,
Even when you want to crack.

Just take a breather,
Of that fresh air,
Look at all the surrounds you,
And see that not everythings in blue.

Just take a chocolate bar,
Take a big bite,
Look at your troubles fading,
Now it's not so irritatting.

Just take the phone,
Dial my number,
Look at our old pictures,
Just to make yourself remember...
The good times.

Well, in one way or another. The day started out pretty sucky-ish actually. I had a massive freaking headache. You know what fixed it? Singing along to some tunes eventhough I didn't really know the words. If you saw me sitting at the caf, bobbing my head and singing aloud to purest of pain...yeah, sorry, if it distrupted you. Best pescription ever though. I love James Blunt's new single...though I'm not such a big fan of his new look. The song is just as good as his last alb. I'm finally gonna chill with k & b after so long. Stupid diff breaks, lol. I leave you with the lyrics to lifehouse's new song that I absolutely LOVE.

First Time-Lifehouse

First Time Lyrics


We're both looking for something
We've been afraid to find
It's easier to be broken
It's easier to hide

Looking at you,holding my breath,
For once in my life,I'm scared to death,
I'm taking a chance,letting you inside.

Feeling alive all over again,
As deep as the sky, under my skin
Like being in love, she says
For the first time
Maybe I'm wrong,
But I'm feeling right where I belong
With you tonight
Like being in love
To feel for the first time

The world that I see inside you
Waiting to come to life
Waking me up to dreaming
Reality in your eyes

Looking at you,
Holding my breath,
For once in my life
I'm scared to death,
I'm taking a chance,
Letting you inside.

I'm feeling alive all over again
As deep as the sky under my skin
Like being in love, she says, for the first time
Maybe I'm wrong, I'm feeling right
Where I belong with you tonight
Like being in love to feel for the first time

We're crashing
Into the unknown
We're lost in this
But it feels like home

I'm feeling alive all over again
As deep as the sky under my skin
Like being in love, she says, for the first time
Maybe I'm wrong, I'm feeling right
Where I belong with you tonight
Like being in love to feel for the first time

It's pretty darn amazing what a little caffiene and food can do to kickstart your day. I didn't fast today cos I "wanted to replenish". Good thing too. It was a freaking hot day. Then again, it's always hot right? Tuesday was alright but I was kinda rushing to bring Alysha to the doctor. Took the lrt. See, I'm not a total ignoranmus? Stupid Malaysian mentality, had an encounter with 'Swiss Ali'(courtesy of Hitz.fm). Anyways, yesterday was tiring. Today was the same. I went to Mcd's for breakie with Mirah. Then I realised...money all gone. That was before lunch. I was basically all hyper throughout the day. Kept saying and doing the wrong things in data;P. Which is kinda expected. Celine and the rest were looking at me all weird like cos I was the textbook for tv and cartoon shows. Double dragons...I know it. Power Rangers...check. Sonic...yup. Rainbow Brite...got the tape. I am such a kid that I think my kids might end up being more mature than me...when I actually do have kids, anyway...but for that I will actually need some unexpected guy, lol. Saw comel boy today. Sarah finds him plain. I think he's still comel. Guy in families? So over him. Ah, better get started on my work. Toodloo bugaboos!

Feels that way. Maybe...I don't know. Yesterday went balik kampung, came back with a whole list of complaints, haha. Still...there's nothing like going back, eh?I puasa again today. Many more days to ganti. Well, at least I have Tori Amos to teman me... yeah, I finally bought the cd. American Doll Posse(ADP) is ringing with attitude and discontempt at today's society. Which makes it such a refreshing change from that Hip-hop ghetto craze thing going on now. Fav.song has to be 'teenage hustling', thus far. Work is slowly piling up. So many independent research projects to work on. Well, I rather be doing this that A-Levels(no offense), I'm just not cut out for full throttle exams. Tomorrow going to teman Alysha to doctor. And then shop at Alpha Angle...don't know if that's the correct spelling but wth right? Still working on my MPH contest entry, stupid brain keeps shifting gears, lalalala. See?

So, I just finished HP last night. It took longer than expected with college getting in the way and all but still worth it. Im pretty satisfied with the ending but actually cried when 2 parents died, sniff. Yeah, I know Im a softie... We ended up doing another assignment for Data(Hell!) but Mr.M's explanation makes sense. I was brought into a state of panic yesterday because I thought I had lost my locker keys. Bodohnya Tasha! And I went crazy like hell...more frustrating actually, so it was like Laguna Beach to say the least, haha. I did something else that was like double bodoh but I won't say anything else besides that;P. Sigmund Freud believes in an unconscious mind and that dreams are the left over thoughts in a day...my thoughts must've been having a party cos the dream was confusing to say the least. It was me and a guy(There's always a guy, pfft) but this guy seems familiar but at the same time not so. I think it had something to do with the guy asking me out and then some other guy who wants to ask me out too. For some reason, this one is kinda tricky to remember. Sigh, I guess all that transfer into nerds-ville messed with my dream decipheration skills. What do I have planned today? No idea.

Table for 1

She walked inside the glitzy setting,
And smiled sweetly at the greeter,
Tucked away the book that she was reading,
Then asked for a table for dinner,
The young thing sat and perused through the menu,
She carefully turned every page,
As the wind outside violently blew,
Her face was the opposite of rage,
Her eyes seemed to glisten,
While she ate her favourite dish,
And from afar a strapping gentleman,
Was making his personal wish,
He never took his eyes of her,
Hardly blinked at all,
The candles only glowed brighter,
Even in the darkness of fall,
He wanted to approach the angel,
Tell her that she was why the world existed,
But then she would question his angle,
And think that he was somehow twisted,
When he finally stood,
She walked out onto the street,
And suddenly he wanted to brood,
But instead moved quickly on his feet,
He called out "Miss, please wait!",
She then met his awed stare,
When feeling came back to him thick and straight,
He explained to her why he was there,
The maiden listened patiently,
And gave a few pleasant smiles,
Then she took his hand ever so gently,
And they strolled around for awhile.

So lets begin where we stopped yesterday yeah?Classes were ok, I guess. This guy in the caf asked me what programme I was in before proceeding to ask me my name. The scene played out as so...Me: Sits down further down, ok, more like plop down with my bag and then both he and his friend look oddly at me. Just as they were leaving, IB:Excuse me, what prog are you in?...Me:(Always the goody goody type) Urm, ICPU?(What's he gonna do with that anyway?), IB: Turns to his friend then at me again and asks "Can I know your name?"... Well, you can guess it from there. Turns out it was a dare from his friend. Yeah, soooo mature *rolls eyes*. Data was a nightmare cos Mr.M was in a bad mood thanks to our bodoh-ness in handling excel. The giveaway? I said "Thank you,sir" being polite right? He does not reply. I doubt he didn't hear me. Anyways, Im fasting today. 6 more days to ganti if I cross today off, haish, nanti pengsan man. Mr.Ken said Im a great writer, haha, that made my day;P. Still havent done anything for the MPH contest though. Can't decide which idea to go with, sigh. Now I shall wait in vain for Maroon 5's new vid 'wake up call' to load...stupid connection!!! Adam looking as hot as always though, heehee.

Wow, that was quick wasn't it? Well, for some of us anyway. Yesterday was a pretty decent beginning to the month. I don't know why...but I always seem to laugh at odd times nowadays, heh. Wore my fedora yesterday. It attracts people apparently. Ooh, mr.roboto too. Families was boring...I'm hoping for some drastic change in pace in that class. I've been writing romantic poetry like there's no tomorrow. Silly dreamy me...Oh, special thanks to Yee Hong who made my day yesterday. I won't tell you what he did but it was freaking nice. Yeah la, I wanna leave a bit of suspense there;P. It's alright Tapir. I understand and as you can see, I was occupied anyway, lol. Miss you though. Let's go out and watch a movie or something? Qing called me yesterday. Poor darling is going mad. Take it easy alright babes? Nami, hows life? Hope all is well with you. Pakai baju tebal sikit yeah? Hehe. Yes, it is a slow day...but then again, it is only the beginning;).

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